Or, if not pretty deep, kind of deep. Deep enough. Though a quick reread of some of her lyrics suggests that she lacks some of the imagined depth I perceived in high school, I can still see why some of her songs resonated with me as a high schooler.
“Everything’s changing, when I turn around
I’m out of my control, I’m a mobile”
Yup, pretty much sums up the constant, out of my control, changes thrown at me during high school. Moving schools and houses, departing friends, juggling identities; all the fun TCK additions to a turbulent time of life. (Now with more changes!)
And routines become addictive, even if the routine is change itself. After high school I hopped universities, hopped majors, hopped countries; I pretty much dominated the bunny on a pogo stick act.
Now I’m in Stockholm. I’m currently (unintentionally) stationary. And it’s unnerving. It’s like country winter silence: no traffic, no neighbors, hibernating crickets.
And my friends and family are hopping like mad, emphasizing my stillness. Marriages, jobs, moves: my network is scattered. It’s like the diaspora. OK maybe not like that.
But it’s an interesting time, being in the audience, watching the lives of others. There’s a lot of potential here. A lot of time to learn, explore, meditate. Stillness does not equal laziness. (See, I’m deep like Avril.)
Also, if you’re a random reader wanting to know how to pronounce my name, they say it like 50 times in this clip. Sarah Michelle Gellar is baaaaack.